fri step back to BQ after so many months, ask kazz to go carpark fetch me cos so long nv go le scare i lost haha. Was at QB bar at first, when i go they already finish 2 bottle , my god, n derrick say he go chambers there fetch me, i thot he say for fun, he actually went, everyone went around look for him, he was drunk til dun noe wat he is doing. then we went next door, WHISKY BAR, i was so scared, this is the first time after that incident i step into whisky, i keep covering my face hopefully no one recognised me hopefully wif my harry potter glasses n tud tud hairstyle, luckily all the waitress n waiter changed le, but... think BQ cannot go le all very young ppl go even the waitress also very young like only 18 19, think i too old le. i really cannot le only ONE glass n i feel very uncomfortable, not even shots... i went home quite early alone cos think very xian also, derrick keep asking me the same qns over n over again for 843 times, he really drunk
sat went to mt faber wif grace, her hubby n xiao didi, grace n i went to the toilet, i find it funny y there is 尿壶inside but i thot it might be an unisex toilet, so i didnt ask, then we plan to go out but end up in another toilet at first we thot we were lost in the toilet, then we walk back agin, saw a couple, guy tell the gal ladies the other side(the toilet we just came out), we saw the guy went into the toilet we pee, we keep laughing but dun dare to say, once we walk out from the toilet, we burst into laughter cos both of us found out we use guy toilet.thenw e went geylang eat porridge of cos i dint eat much cos dun like porridge only eat dishes. sent grace n hubby home then intend to send xiao didi home but he insist on acc me back to yishun he then sit cab home, finally see a gentlemanout of my whole life haha as if i stay at 峨眉山
today saw jerine at des office, my first reaction was hi n feeling excited thinking a long frd came visting us, forgetting for the past yr we were actually in a 尴尬situation. this means that actually we still care... Jerine was crying i dint noe what she talk to mdm but when she come to the 话题she keep on crying, i noe she must have put on a lot of courage to come gif us invitation s benji actually 放话toask her better dun come des b4 mdm shoo her away, but we didnt, actually after the last few gatherings we come to a sense that actually the fault doesnt really lie on jerine s she wasnt even the real party, we also have seen the case in a fairer position to see where the problem actually lies, i dindt noe y we so angry at her she also cant understand, but think maybe she didnt get back to tarek, anyway, jerine finally took the step out so hope she can find a day tok to tarek, we have been frds for so long hope the 尴尬situation will end soon
yesterday had really become a busy day, i darg myself up at 12 plus n rush down to jean yip compass pt to cut my hair, then found out kun's grandpa passed away, we always go find ah peh when someone sprain some parts of the body, though star always say ah peh "每次退了别人的脚，没洗手就来推我的颈项" yewwwww.... n if u go on sun he is always playing mahjong n he will keep scolding a lot of bad words if he lost then come out push for u. he alawys say bo dai ji la bo dai ji la (no problem ), all these are his memories i dint noe such a healthy old man willpass away suddemly its just like a few months ago that i saw him b4化蝶，i brought liuqiang there, haiz life its like that nobody will noe what happen tmr, better cherish whatever u have now n be close to your family one day they will leave u....
after going to the wake i met ah ling n his bro, kent just came back from mymar n its been like 3 yrs since the last time i saw him when we go blue werks he cook for us.we went to flaminggo mangos a very desserted place just beside sembawang shopping centre, we 叙旧n talk, tell me how he handles his staff who are all villages wearing a sarong to work to become chef at a boutique hotel which only enetertain big guest general n minister, now then i noe ppl at mymmar r not allow to have hp or even house phone cos they r a communist country, the only way to contact them is calling to a public phone like a coffee shop n they will run to the house n call the ppl u want to find. they really very poor, live in those houses made of straw supported by 4 bamboo. reminds me of cambodia always pass by these houses on our way to angkor wat,(to all that goes wif me: i actually still remain awake ok, i didnt sleep forever ok) so fun to c bro n sister so close, me n koko wont be like that, the only times is when we go zouk together n thats becos shijie wants me intro gals to him, n when we celebrate jason kwek n koko bday together at ktv when we sing 心爱的别哭(hokkien song) together
last night went to chong pang nasilemak for supper wif ah ling, jeramiah, patrick. ah ling came to fetch me but cant find me n keep nagging that how come i dint noe i have a bus stop under my blk, but true wat, i nv take bus from my house since i moved here, jeryl's a typical gay, he is very opened n dun mind ppl noe he got bf n getting illegally married this yr n all his actions tell that he is, he more bitchy n anuty than gals, he really amused me the whole night, he reminds me of miss ni o i misses his 俄罗斯芭蕾
we decided to go mandai (used to be edmund n mine fav hunt) there to talk, so have to go back take car, as usual ah ling dun wanna walk but its just such a short dist, when we finally persuade her, n not taking more than 10 steps, she put out a hand to flag a cab, n thats how we got up a cab n a series of things happen together....when we got up to cab, patrick shouted ouch... jeryl scream n say "oops i'm terribly sorry patrick, i didnt purposely press on your BALLS!!!! i didnt noe thats your balls" i kept laughing n didnt even realised the cab jerk, then a van stopped in front of us, the passenger got down, but nearly fall as the driver haven really come to a stop, he kept showing gestures, then driver come towards the cab uncle n scold 1 series of bad words, i am really in a stunt, 1 moment laughing the other moment suddenly saw this, i have a verge of getting doen to ask wat happen, but i didnt cos firstly i dun noe wat really happen, secondly, i promise myself nv get into trouble for others biz anymore, cos its not worth it, they wont appreciate at most on the time very thankful but after that forget till dun noe fly no where... anyway come back to the situation, i think those 2 guys were either drunk or taking drugs, cos they nv even bang onto us, the cab uncle only intend to drive out but when seeing a van dash so fast he stopped, obviously nth big happen y they wanted to make it big? anyway after a while cab uncle quickly drive away, ah ling says his wallet dropped, at tat moment the 3 of us got so excited n we begged uncle to stop for us to pick up, but sway sway they stopped in front of us, unvle dun dare to stop. we ask uncle to drive faster so that we can get my car go back there n hopefully pick up the wallet, jeryl again keep saying maybe they r drug dealers n maybe just clinched some deal n have 5k inside which makes al of us even excited, actually we not interested in his wallet just tat they gave us a fright we wanted to take a revenge
situation 2when we got down the cab, i suddenly saw a guy running very fast up the stairs, the staris i always walk, n i saw his batok, we were so excited again esp jeryl, dun noe its 1 person or 2, he might be doing sth but when he heard us getting down a cab as we were very noisy, he quickly ran up, but if i were him i wont keep running up naked, i will bend down wear my pants properly n walk up the stairs as if nth happens at least t wont catch attention, be it a flasher or exhbitionist or any couples who trying to do anything, all gals out there pls be careful, its at my blk yishun 730. ah ling quickly stopped us from watching n remindede us of the wallet, as fast as a rocket we quickly set off, jeryl n patrick kept screaming behind as i didnt brake while cornering n they wer flung from right to left n back again, shit by the time we reached there the wallets gone, haiz wastedsituation 3
road block, alraedy 3 plus how come road block some more at my side, even if they wanna catch they shd block the other side for those drunkard ppl coming from their cheong night, i quickly ask them put on seat belts, jeryl again very sam pat n say how come he cant buckle n very worried can imagine his expression he so big size n talking like that, ah ling forever very cool say just hold on to it n shut up, i just hope they wont stop us cos i forget to bring license again if they stopped, this is the 2nd time i was caught without bringing license.
finally after so many things happen we reached our destination. jeryl nv stopped to amused me n tell us a lot of things abt gay n now then i noe theres a gay spa in singapore call shogun near maxwell mkt n he can tell us whats inside n so interesting tat i feel like going too. i was so happy tat night it was the happiest night within these few months
2009 2009, what a special day, there r no 2nd date anymore, today had a perf @ botanical garden. garden wedding, 168 couples choose this date to rom at botanical garden. wow such A MEMORABLE DATE FOR THOSE COUPLES.
though today is 2009 2009 plus hari raya puasa n also grandma bday, but today was such a lousy day, eyes got infected cos lasy night try to put contact lens for chinatown perf, i really become bunny wif red eyes, keep tearing n cant see the sun, almost got into accident while driving but so what if i got into accident, nobody will care, but at least got to rest haha. while performing my eyes were so pain till it makes me have flu n my mucsa keep flowing out like its free n i was so noisy when i try to stop it from flowing out, n i keep rubbing my nose till 破皮
n worst still, teeth decay, hope its my wisdom n not my molar, else got to do that stupid root canal, now my face also 歪一边due to the swollen gum, have to endure the pain cos till tues then can c dentist,
actually promise to go to my grandma bday but was caught back to wash costume, so many hundres of costume from last night n tonight perf feel so bad
these 2 days when i off i want to make myself busy, last time always feel that 1 off day is nv enough now feel that its 2 empty, plan plan, k tmr go cut my hair get a new look n start a new life, then go buy M.A.C compact powder cos mine drop n broke into pieces like my heart, i will go alone as kazz is bz. tues go dentist n c doctor n pay all my bills all overdued amting to thousand plus, n wrap hundreds of present, n do the stupid weekly work report so bo liao
today mdm make us go costume move boxes again, we eat halfway, then come down quickly continue to eat, mdm say gif us half hr to clear our in charge studio, but me n tarek keep eating while others alraedy start cleaning, then afetr eating we go up to our studio pick up a few litter laze around n go down again, star n even fuying clean the cupboard wif awter, yaojia clear till sweat, haha me n tarek really lazy
then we haf warm up wif yihan, he make us keep hundreds of leg but today dun sweat as much as yest cos today everyone very lazy n keep thinking if we can go prepare for press preview
tonight i did a very stupid action n i dun noe y i suddendly leave my house n drove away to find out sth. i promise myself this will be the last time to do this, i dun think its worth it to do since no appreciation, i very realistic if nv get any return i wont waste time n resource on that,
anklet lost, i really cant rem where i put it, i dun noe if it was tat day when i emo i put away or izzit that it drop, i found the whole house but cant find, its very sad n helpless, but nobody noe n nobody will care, it just make me feel i alraedy lost everything. the grifness which cant be explained.
today i finally realised sth, actually i m just a nobody, the treatment of ignorance shows the unimportance of me living in this world, y did i come to this world when being ignored, commented for not able to share unhappiness, but at least i found out, so i wont go against the bad treatment, i shall leave it forever.....
９别从缝，莫非件好事
也并不是有缘
只是让你看得更清楚，看破
默默看着没熄灭的灯
勾起以往默默看着坐在影幕前的影子
却没勇气敲打面前的按钮
扣在脚踝上的铃铛
不是代表一起走完吗
熟悉的道路忽然离得好遥远
有一句话再也听不到
那些过往只好放在心上
放了揣测 不再等待
把铃铛藏起，就好像海豚戒指
越藏越久，就忘了是什么意义了
情人节的前一天
他离开你身边
只剩下你无止境的想念
那一夜我陪着你
你哭了一整夜
你是否知道
我对他也一样很想念
直到有一天
我和他碰面
在那间 我们常去的咖啡店
才知道 有些感受
我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们之间
隐藏了什么
除了我自己没人懂
可是你 你怎么说
你知道后是不是从此避开我
oh~ 我一样难过
多希望我们不曾相识过
才知道 有些感受
我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们都是最好的朋友
谁会有勇气去开口
不再哭 不再难过
我们还有好大好大的天空
故事的最后
我们都不曾失去过什么
我们依然是朋友
whenever my mood is bad, i will go jogging to forget all the sad things, i jog only after midnight, cos after work its alwasys so late, n lesser ppl, no disruption, some more at night very dark ppl cant see my facial expression, when i feel like dropping tears i cry. tears matt away with my sweat , sometimes it drop to the ground, sometimes it flies away against the wind,
when i am moody n feel like talking to someone, i always end up never finding anyone cos dun noe how to pour my sadness to ppl, theres sth i feel like hiding n found out no pt telling ppl
i took my revenge i feel like telling ppl, but surely will get scolded, no matter what i think is right or wrong, i just dun want others to do b4 me, sorry to the somebody whom i have used, but we were frds think u wont mind anyway u will nv find out since everyone got nth to lose
to everyone, if anybody wants to treat me badly think twice as i will do 10 times worst. dun regret
on 2nd sept, when we reach northland, we only saw 4 students, they told us the rest not coming, though we noe there is a celebration but we didnt noe they wanted to gif us a surprise, we were brought to a classroom, they were still preparing, but we can see that from the window.
we were welcome with a poster they made, we were very amused where they got our pictures, they took from facebook, haha so clever, the sweet students decorate the classrooms with ballon, then use candle to arrange in a heart shape and put HTD(happy teachers day)
3 tables were arranged for us with a cake each, xiuwei did a power point about the process from setting up the chi dance club, with photos for us to thank us.
they also gif us hand made flowers and ballon
this is the first time i receive this kind of surprise for teachers day, i nv like teaching and it had nv come across my mind as a career b4 when i was young, till today did i realise teaching esp teaching the northland kids was such a fruitful thing, thanks to xinling for organising this surprise and other members who helped up, i luv u
today treated them to Seoul garden, and they visit my house and play with my niece, so sweet i nv thot we can be so close to students, dear students sorry if i have always been scolding you all, but i luv u all
