the signature tian shan feast, the elderest have to cut the face , then cut the ear n give to the most junior 2, i can nv for get the taste for mutton its so gross i nv like the taste at all
xinjiang international dance festival
21/7/11 -27/7/11
书韵
宛在水中央
天山
ugly 4 eyes
very cheap massage 20 plus for full body plus facial foe 130 min
perf over
finale hats given by mr chua won big applause from audience
taking a last min photo wif dry ice around us 10 secs before curtain open
daddy on stage
栈房-蒙古包look alike, the 1st time eating inside this tent gimme me a feeling tat i m an ancient xinjiang ppl
my dream husband - must be a spanish n matured
went to Sembawang Park Beaulieu house wif ah ling, bring back a lot of memories, a lot of happy moments happen there, both of us had our bday bbq there, pon ten also go there, a lot of frds bbq also go there. last time whenever frd bday, the bday boy/gal sure dio sabo by being thrown down to the beach, and i surely will b also thrown down too.
i used to be the centre attraction of every group, since kindergarten or even walking on the road. but now i m juz a nobody tat no one would even care a damn on me or sometimes i might even wonder am i invisible in the world? sometimes i might even wonder if i disappear, would anyone found out?
i have come to learn tat as people grow up, everything change, the people around me change, the people who used to say sister forever would nv be forever with u, the people who is very close to u might be very distant from u, some people may change frds when they change a new partner, some posture tat used to be very popular in my life would nv appear again, some happiness or expression on my face nv appear again.
when things change n i started to face the world alone, i need to be independant, i need to do things myself, i eat myself where i always feel more peaceful, i shop overseas myself where i feel no stress, i go to work and home myself where i feel tat i always can put my barang on the passenger seat, i used to eat with my colleagues but now i only eat while driving to keep myself awake. whenever there is gathering and there is a point when i become bored, i will play games on my phone to keep myself occupied, thanks to the invention of iphone, it is always my best frd/ sister. i now understand y people rather keep staring at their phone than talking to me to make me awake, it is to break the silence
however theres some frds tat always stay by me, in work jiji n i would encourage each other, give our point of view, gossip. mei is always there for me, though we only meet on mon we can always talk wat happen during the week, i can always tell her how i feel, tell her things tat i can only keep wif myself thru the week, she can always tell me wat difficulties she face with other frds, ah ling, i always feel very secure wif her, she always listens to wat i tell her though i noe sometimes she dun understands but shestill give me a very understanding smile, she is always very on, whenever i ask her out she sure on, i like to go eat wif her as i think i can dun care so much. lastly isa n tv.
in work i feel so lonely as the new batch was nt s close to me, they were younger, prettier, dance better, i always do things alone, once i catch a nap cos morning perf was too early, they saw me slping, told me slp first when warm up then call me, so i trust them n slp peacefully, then suddenly jump up to c mr chua looking ver curiously at me wondering y others r warming up n i still slping, my the other coleague who also perf with me is already warming up while i still slping, at tat point i felt so betrayed, i have nv felt so lonely at work suddenly, last time there is always tarek calling me together, now i need to be independant n dun depend n trust others, i qns them in a nice way y they nv wake me up, their reason was they wanted to let me slp more n some more mdm not around. of cos i can only b angry in my heart s they might mean kind. as i was always alone upstairs whenever there is a sudden meeting i m always nt informed, till i went down to do sth i will found out everyone is sitting at the gallery then i will sit inside secretly, though mdm always gif face for nt scolding s she needs more energy in scolding others, i still feel very un noticed.
the qurale wif zhanlun, some grievances scoldings make me understand and learned nt to catch attention anymore, low profile is my motto, anything keep to myself is the best, i should be proud tat some people might need a longer way than me to c things, i haf nth to lose except wasting time but i can afford to waste. coming back to disappear i can alraedy forsee when i die nobody will found out till my body decompose n stink and decide to call police then suddenly realised tat i have been without news for quite some time the reason is i have left the world so secretly tat no one noticed..... haiz the route to alone is still a long way to go......
the signature tian shan feast, the elderest have to cut the face , then cut the ear n give to the most junior 2, i can nv for get the taste for mutton its so gross i nv like the taste at all
宛在水中央
ugly 4 eyes
