1st may
last night went to eat bbq wif tarek they all, eat till very full then feel very cold n tired then lie down to sleep, today wake up to feel headache and having fever, face swollen, ulcer very pain whole body heaty. actually planned to go east coast wif star they all but very lazy to go out also nv meet kazz
evening time, i forget i dun like evening time make me feel very depress feel the whole day was really meaningless. i shd have slept thru this time but i was wide awake to stay thru this torturing moment. i dun wanna go out just feel like crying, wat am i waiting for? no miracles will happen, stop comparing wat happen those days and now. everything change since 2 weeks ago, no way that the time could be reset back.just s i was ready to face the fact, last week some miracles happen, but it nv make me feel any better, in fact i was juzt dragging myself away from reality, wats happen could not be undone. nobody stays in a hotel for long, 1 day has to leave. b it better or worst, though i nv regretted, but if the ending was so bad hope it nv happens b4.
i dun noe since when do i use ice cream to heal my sadness, i just feel that eating ice cream when u feel upset makes u better, i feel like eating ice cream, but the thot of tat night i finish the whole tub of haigen dazz ice cream makes me feel like puking, i think i will stop eating ice cream for a period of time till i heal and forget everything.....
